22: I was brutish and ignorant. I was a beast toward You.
23: Nevertheless I am continually with You; You hold my right hand.
24: You guide me with your counsel, and afterwards You will receive me to your glory.
25: Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth I desire…
“Why me Lord?”
I didn’t want to write this at all but I just decided to.
In our lives when things go wrong, we often ask ourselves “Why me?”. This can apply to Non-Christians; “Why me? Why do I have to go through this? I don’t deserve this crap.”
For Christians, they often use the “Why me Lord?” this way. “Why me Lord? Why are you making me go through this? I did all of _____ for you. Why do you have to make me go through this?” To be honest, every christians were and still are in this position. We expect something from our intimate relationship between God and us. We think it’s ‘you scratch my back and I scratch yours’ relationship. We expect God to give us something good or/and take something bad for us. We try to take advantage of this glorious and holy relationship with our Mighty God.
But for Gospel-Centered Christians, they use the phrase this way.
“Why me Lord? Even though I grumble and complain at you daily, why do You show me Your infinite love and your infinite mercy, and your infinite grace?
Why Lord? Why did you send Your only and beloved Son so you can save this wretched sinner?
Why me Lord? What did I do to deserve and receive this indescribable love and grace?
Why Lord? Why?”
Sadly, I learned this the hard way (Why do I have to learn things the hard way?). Coming back from Washington with empty handed kinda tore my heart. It made me ask the question the wrong way. But by the grace of God (and by the song, “Why Me Lord?” by David Crowder Band), I started to think that in the Gospel-centered way.The Gospel, when applied, can bring many things into light.
1. It allows me to realize that thissituation and the outcome of it does not fully reflect God’s love. His love was already settled on the Cross with His son dying on the cross. His ultimate affection isn’t being shown by how I feel about the situation.
2. It made me see that how foolish I can be. This ONE unfortunate event blinded me so much that it made me forget ALL the things that God has given me. Especially His love and his grace for me.
3. It helps me to know that the Gospel is the only thing that can truly satisfy my desperate soul and my thirsty heart. No, not the things on this world but only the cross and the grace of God can lift my heart up and deliver me from everything.
4. It reminds me that even though I forget about how much He loves me, He’ll still love me (kinda confusing no?) He’ll still love me even though I sin, which can be forgetting that the God is really all I need in this life.
Dang, it’s a long post but I felt like I just wrote everything (not really) that was on my brain. Writing does help.
Well, here it is Abe. I read yours and you read mine. We’re even.
Thank God for this lesson.
